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The Tracks of My Tears

I'm just being really emotional today. Between the physical pain of removing my wisdom teeth to the emotional pain of a boyfriend that I can't get over, I really just want to cry. I think crying myself to sleep is going to be the best way to go. In a way crying is a little haunting, but it sometimes comforts me. I've wanted to cry at school (actually, I've done that) so never mind. Sometimes I question my actions and wonder if they could even be justified now. Probably not. Jesus, you know when you mess up...and you KNOW you dun messed up? (lol at the "dun") I don't know. I just never thought that my ex would move on that fast. It breaks my heart because he was truly that one person that kind understood me. Oh and not to mention my mother LOVES him. I vividly remember after algebra last year we'd walk to our lockers because we were literally 10 lockers away from each other and we'd sit at his locker, and awkwardly stare into space because we didn't know what to talk about. I guess that silence was okay; we were okay to be with each other in complete silence (well, that's how I felt). He'd hold my hand and we'd sit on the ground and wait for everyone to leave their lockers so we could be alone. That aloneness was only for all of 5 minutes. Best five minutes of my day in the 10th grade. Then we'd have to leave. He had baseball, I had theatre. He kissed my cheek so tenderly, like almost as if he didn't want to hurt my face. I kissed his cheek the same way. I personally think we were scared :) kiss, hug, hold hands, part. the routine...everyday, and it was great. I didn't think I would be taking that for granted, you know? Something so small, so simple, yet it could leave the biggest print on my heart. Now I stand here questioning why I broke up with him, and why I can't get him back.

Outside I'm masquerading
Inside my hope is fading
Just a clown oh yeah
Since you put me down
My smile is my make up
I wear since my break up with you..
So take a good look at my face
You'll see my smile looks out of place
If you look closer, it's easy to trace
The tracks of my tears
-Smokey Robinson & The Miracles

p.s. happy 11 months to the two people who keep holding on
John & Alix
<3

Mama Who Bore Me

MOM:want some vaseline for your cheeks?
me: what's that gonna do?
MOM:that's the cure all for everything.

I swear, whenever I have a womanly/bodily problem my mother pulls out the vaseline from nowhere.
&& the funny thing is
it works
kendall

Sans Makeup

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I LOVE APRICOT-TEA!

yours truly without makeup :)

Whaddup W. Rachel Zoe?

SHUT IT...SHUT IT...SHUT IT DOWN!
-this woman has made my day so far. I love her show & she made me realize what I want to do in life.

20 Questions

1.First thing you wash in the shower?
I wash my face in the shower. Everything comes next
2. What color is your favorite hoodie?
PURP.
3. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
Absolutely not. Something about 3 kisses then never speaking again turns me off.
4.Do you plan outfits?
Only to religious services & parties
5. How are you feeling RIGHT now?
Like P. Diddy: PUFFY
6. Whats the closest thing to you thats red?
My sexy pillow from Ross ;)
7. Do you say aim or a-i-m?
well, back in the day a-i-m...but now it's ichat
8. Tell me about the last dream you remember having?
I married the boy I have a crush on...oops
9. Did you meet anybody new today?
I met Rachel Zoe via Bravo (in love with her)
10. What are you craving right now?
a fucking veggie burger
11. Do you floss?
at night.
12. What comes to mind when I say cabbage?
FOOD --> hunger
13. When was the last time you talked on aim?
oh ichat, 3 days ago
14. Are you emotional?
every 3 weeks
15. Would you dance to the taco song?
what's the taco song? and now i'm hungry...for tacos. damn
16. Have you ever counted to 1,000?
ha. maybe when i was a little kid. I vividly remember counting that.
17. Do you bite into your ice cream or just lick it?
lick it. yes boys, start the jokes
18. Do you like your hair?
Eh. it gets the job done. I'm thankful that I have hair though
19. Do you like yourself?
Somedays. every girl has her ups and downs about herself
20. Have you ever met a celebrity?
Fonsworth Bentley. the umbrella guy.

How to Be a Good Friend

Okay, so I am way to high off the Codeine to actually make a video so I thought that blogging about it would be a great idea.

Respect Your Friends
I don't think I can stress that enough. To have a good relationship with your friends you have to be willing and able to understand where your friends are coming from. Sure, you might not agree with what they say about your personality, but respecting what they think about you is a key point in any progressing relationship. Instead of getting mad and letting the anger express how you feel, sit down and try to understand where the other is coming from.

Don't Talk About Friends Behind Their Back
Yes, yes, I know ALL of us have talked about our friends. I wouldn't call it human nature, but it is something that happens during life. Am I encouraging it? Absolutely not. Especially in girls, it's important that we don't let petty little fights consume our entire lives to the point that we feel as if we need to express our anger to another friend. Girls are chatty, and I guarantee you talk about your friend to another...IT WILL BE SPREAD in a matter of hours. I can promise you that. Try to keep your anger inside, or if you can't do that actually TALK to the friend who's pissed you off.

Don't Tell Your Friend's Business
That's just...the rules of Feminism! Mean Girls...anyone? Just Don't. It'll end up BAD. Trust me, I've been there before. I've been on both sides of this argument. When a friend tells you something, it goes in the VAULT. One of my best friends has been living with a secret for years, and to this day I have not said one word about it because I respect her friendship. Now, yes, we have all told a friend's secret and it wasn't cool whatsoever, and we all know what that does...so let's all try to fix it. If someone asks you something, act DUMB...even if you do know... blatantly LIE. It will save your relationship.

Act Like an Old Married Couple
This might sound completely off the chart, but it works. My best friend and I fight all the time. It's so funny because Our parents say we fight like old people. That's where our friendship grows from. Take it old school. Learn everything about your friend. Learn what makes them tick, what pisses them off, what makes them sad. It's just the key to a successful relationship (at least w. my best friend)

I hope all this helps repair or renew a friendship that has been lost or a new friendship that is just now booming.
Kendall
:)

i hate introductions

i know, i know...here's an introduction (hella late. nonetheless here it is)

name: kendall
age: big ONE SEVEN
location: my bedroom/hotlanta
mood: chipmunked face
loves: arizona tea. chikfila spicy wraps. boys.
hates: LIARS
thinking:Yo, my cheeks hurt
accomplished: actually doing my homework while out from surgery. i like this
wishes: for a nice boyfriend

*cheesy smile
ciao

you're a virgin who can't drive

CREDIT: http://www.flickr.com/photos/apricot_tea/4022241331/in/set-72157620825204662/



You're a Virgin?

Indeed I am. I'm not into having sex and quite frankly, I'm scared of it. I guess it's just being so close and so intimate with someone. I don't want to get so caught up in the hype of amazing sex because I don't think it would be that amazing. Maybe it's because I'm still too inexperienced to understand that sex is just another form of love. I think I'm afraid of the whole term "fucking" For something so beautiful, fucking is a terrible connotation for something that expresses another level of love and intimacy. I'm not one of those girls that's waiting for marriage; just waiting for someone who will understand and accept my concerns.


You Can't Drive?

I get that a lot now. What is a seventeen year old girl doing without her license? I was a slacker when I turned 15. Not necessarily caring about driving because I always imagined myself using my Charlie Card in Boston or taking the Subway in New York. I was totally wrong. In the South, all people use are cars; therefore not having my permit kicked me in the butt. I do get my license in May of this year, and hopefully I'll have access to a car :) Oh, and for the actual driving part...I have a led foot. (according to mumsie)
kendall

The Louboutin Manicure

I just thought this was too fashion forward and extremely chic.
What do you think?
Kendall

Diddy's Failing Prodigy

I think this is the DUMBEST idea that P.Diddy, excuse me, I mean Puff Daddy, Puff, Diddy, etc.. has ever come up with.
Okay so the only good song by Diddy Dirty Money is 'Hello Good Morning' and that's because Nicki Minaj was in it. You could put Nicki Minaj in ANY song & it would make millions, if not billions of dollars. Diddy has had plenty of groups that could have succeeded if his major ego didn't get in the way. Oh let's name a few shall we? Danity Kane, Day 26, B5...just to name the recent ones. Yes, Diddy did have good music in the 90s. THE 90S but it's over now. His reign has come and gone. Diddy, let it go. Take that stupid grill out of your mouth, you're not Kanye. Oh and if you could quit that stupid fake dougie dance that you do it would be great.
Kendall

I Need a Prom Date

Besides the fact that my face currently looks like a chipmunk who's stored away nuts for winter, I'm looking for a prom date. This is getting a tad ridiculous because all the past guys I've dated I'm definitely not asking them to prom. I haven't had an interest in any boys lately (yeah, that's a total lie) but I seriously feel like I'm getting desperate. Ugh, I don't enjoy this process at all.
HELP ME?!
Kendall

New Items!

Okay, so I bought some new things and I thought people might enjoy them.






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enjoy!

Just Say No

So I'm back, BUT with an important message. So I get the whole " I like a boy" scenario. Been there, done that. What I do want to emphasize is the word 'NO'. Yes ladies this can be challenging when you desperately like someone, or that you're so desperate you'll do anything for the attention. Say NO. It's really not hard...I say it everyday. NO! Say it with me ladies. NO! Now don't you feel better? I thought so. I know there are tons of temptations for girls to fall into the trap of "Baby send me a picture". It's like the infamous line our mothers tell us. "If you love me you'll have sex with me." Ha! It's the exact same thing, just in another form. Gentlemen, you're not SLICK. We know what you're doing, but our feminine instincts cause us to think that maybe just maybe he'll like us more if we press the 'send' button. I know sucks right?! Ladies, if a guy asks you for a picture and you don't want to send it...say NO! Of course in a reasonable fashion. Unless you truly trust the guy...which I highly doubt, but if you do feel free to send the picture. If you don't just don't send it. It's easy as 1,2,3.Our bodies are too precious for every guy to explore...even if it is "just a picture". Ladies, let's keep in classy mmkay?

smile :)

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Accomplishment

My first term paper of junior year is DONE. Thank GOD. I'm glad I worked on it during school because going to be early makes me a really happy person. My phone was blaring through the wee hours of the morning because all my friends were tweeting about how they were still up and suffering. I wouldn't want to be mean so I left them them alone. I'm always blogging in class, so here I am blogging in Tools…don't ask. lol. I'm trying to study some music for Camerata rehearsal. It's not working. Ugh. I'll be studying during lunch. Whoever Hans Leo Hassler is, I want to strangle you. You and Palestrina. They like to see the altos hard at work don't they? Oh well, it makes me a better musician…I hope. I'm in class with the mystery boy. Swear to god he makes me nervous. Like, one class is enough, but two is just asking for hell. Well it's more like heaven. He's really cute. God, I sound like a 12 year old girl, but he is SOOOO gorgeous…and he's tall. REALLY tall. I have a problem. He wouldn't like me. We're two different people. He's into athletics. I'm into music and theatre. He likes music, but not my favorite kind of music. I swear he's black (is that racist?) I mean he likes everything a stereotypical african american boy likes. The one thing he misses is liking THIS black girl.
:)
Kendall

I Despise Junior Year

Just about everything in junior year irks me. I'm so ready to be a senior it's not even funny. I'm up to my neck with work. Between term papers and rehearsals, I have NO time to have a social life. The only thing I have socially going for me is twitter. LOL which btdubs you can follow me right here Anyway, I always seem to blog in class and never at home (probably because I'm swamped with WORK) I'm sorry If it may sound like I'm complaining, but this year is taking my tolerance level to a whole new extreme of LOW
Well, that's about it. I'm in history staring at the guy I like. Too bad he doesn't notice me.
Kendall

Lea T's Unforgettable Story

You all my know her as Lea T, the successful model, the IT girl of Givenchy. Yet this Brazilian beauty was actually born Leandro Cerezo, a man. Naturally I was shocked. I just thought she was this Brazilian model who was graced with lean legs and a great facial structure. I think her story is pretty amazing actually. I saw her on Oprah, yes I love Oprah and ever since I've been "googling" her non stop. I think she is beautiful and her struggle of being a Transgender woman proves that anyone can be anything they wish. You go Lea T!
Kendall

Prom Dress

I think this dress is absolutely GORGEOUS. I would like it for prom.
…Now if I could find a date. Any takers?
Kendall

Review on L'Oreal Go 360 Clean

This product and my skin have a love/hate relationship. When I bought the product I was so excited because it had the coolest "scrubby" applicator that I've tried. Oh boy was I wrong. Anyway, the cleanser left my skin subtly soft and I could see that my pores were smaller. Great right? Fast forward 2-3 days. I would use the applicator to "scrub" but my skin started to hurt after I pat dried my face. Even my moisturizer wasn't helping the irritation. I wake up one morning and my face is DRY and PEELING. Now the only time I ever peel is when I get burned. It was horrible. I've stopped using it now and have been sticking to mild soaps like Dove, etc. I loved the way my face felt at the beginning, but if your skin is sensitive…BE CAUTIOUS.
My rating: one thumb up, one thumb down
Kendall

Lolitas

these are my friends, my confidantes, my bad "bitches", my harajuku barbies, my life. lol I have no idea what I would do without these guys. Some I've known for years, like Laney (check last picture) and some I've known for only three years, Tobi (the tall one!) These girls have kept me grounded through junior year and I don't know what I would do without them. I love y'all!
Laney, Tobi, Tyler, and Mo thank you for being the best friends a girl could ever have.
Kendall…or KEN(just to piss off Tobi)
:)

I Like Me For Me

hello. it's been awhile hasn't it? i've been super busy with school and junior year in itself. i've barely had any time for myself :). i'm in statistics class right now and i felt like blogging because our school lt's us get on blogger (Go IT Dept!) Anyway, this year has taught me to accept who i am as a person. i've grown stronger and wiser. i've made a few mistakes, but nonetheless learned the lessons. this summer i'm interested in getting a tattoo. i've planned the design (look ^ ^). it's a phrase that says 'I am what I am' in Hebrew. i'd like to get it tattooed on my wrist, so that every time i look down i'm constantly reminded of who i am.

kendall

p.s. happy valentine's day!
86,000 relationships start on v d a y
:)

Feb 5th

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2 pounds GONE!