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The Tracks of My Tears

I'm just being really emotional today. Between the physical pain of removing my wisdom teeth to the emotional pain of a boyfriend that I can't get over, I really just want to cry. I think crying myself to sleep is going to be the best way to go. In a way crying is a little haunting, but it sometimes comforts me. I've wanted to cry at school (actually, I've done that) so never mind. Sometimes I question my actions and wonder if they could even be justified now. Probably not. Jesus, you know when you mess up...and you KNOW you dun messed up? (lol at the "dun") I don't know. I just never thought that my ex would move on that fast. It breaks my heart because he was truly that one person that kind understood me. Oh and not to mention my mother LOVES him. I vividly remember after algebra last year we'd walk to our lockers because we were literally 10 lockers away from each other and we'd sit at his locker, and awkwardly stare into space because we didn't know what to talk about. I guess that silence was okay; we were okay to be with each other in complete silence (well, that's how I felt). He'd hold my hand and we'd sit on the ground and wait for everyone to leave their lockers so we could be alone. That aloneness was only for all of 5 minutes. Best five minutes of my day in the 10th grade. Then we'd have to leave. He had baseball, I had theatre. He kissed my cheek so tenderly, like almost as if he didn't want to hurt my face. I kissed his cheek the same way. I personally think we were scared :) kiss, hug, hold hands, part. the routine...everyday, and it was great. I didn't think I would be taking that for granted, you know? Something so small, so simple, yet it could leave the biggest print on my heart. Now I stand here questioning why I broke up with him, and why I can't get him back.

Outside I'm masquerading
Inside my hope is fading
Just a clown oh yeah
Since you put me down
My smile is my make up
I wear since my break up with you..
So take a good look at my face
You'll see my smile looks out of place
If you look closer, it's easy to trace
The tracks of my tears
-Smokey Robinson & The Miracles

p.s. happy 11 months to the two people who keep holding on
John & Alix
<3

Mama Who Bore Me

MOM:want some vaseline for your cheeks?
me: what's that gonna do?
MOM:that's the cure all for everything.

I swear, whenever I have a womanly/bodily problem my mother pulls out the vaseline from nowhere.
&& the funny thing is
it works
kendall

Sans Makeup

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I LOVE APRICOT-TEA!

yours truly without makeup :)

Whaddup W. Rachel Zoe?

SHUT IT...SHUT IT...SHUT IT DOWN!
-this woman has made my day so far. I love her show & she made me realize what I want to do in life.

20 Questions

1.First thing you wash in the shower?
I wash my face in the shower. Everything comes next
2. What color is your favorite hoodie?
PURP.
3. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
Absolutely not. Something about 3 kisses then never speaking again turns me off.
4.Do you plan outfits?
Only to religious services & parties
5. How are you feeling RIGHT now?
Like P. Diddy: PUFFY
6. Whats the closest thing to you thats red?
My sexy pillow from Ross ;)
7. Do you say aim or a-i-m?
well, back in the day a-i-m...but now it's ichat
8. Tell me about the last dream you remember having?
I married the boy I have a crush on...oops
9. Did you meet anybody new today?
I met Rachel Zoe via Bravo (in love with her)
10. What are you craving right now?
a fucking veggie burger
11. Do you floss?
at night.
12. What comes to mind when I say cabbage?
FOOD --> hunger
13. When was the last time you talked on aim?
oh ichat, 3 days ago
14. Are you emotional?
every 3 weeks
15. Would you dance to the taco song?
what's the taco song? and now i'm hungry...for tacos. damn
16. Have you ever counted to 1,000?
ha. maybe when i was a little kid. I vividly remember counting that.
17. Do you bite into your ice cream or just lick it?
lick it. yes boys, start the jokes
18. Do you like your hair?
Eh. it gets the job done. I'm thankful that I have hair though
19. Do you like yourself?
Somedays. every girl has her ups and downs about herself
20. Have you ever met a celebrity?
Fonsworth Bentley. the umbrella guy.

How to Be a Good Friend

Okay, so I am way to high off the Codeine to actually make a video so I thought that blogging about it would be a great idea.

Respect Your Friends
I don't think I can stress that enough. To have a good relationship with your friends you have to be willing and able to understand where your friends are coming from. Sure, you might not agree with what they say about your personality, but respecting what they think about you is a key point in any progressing relationship. Instead of getting mad and letting the anger express how you feel, sit down and try to understand where the other is coming from.

Don't Talk About Friends Behind Their Back
Yes, yes, I know ALL of us have talked about our friends. I wouldn't call it human nature, but it is something that happens during life. Am I encouraging it? Absolutely not. Especially in girls, it's important that we don't let petty little fights consume our entire lives to the point that we feel as if we need to express our anger to another friend. Girls are chatty, and I guarantee you talk about your friend to another...IT WILL BE SPREAD in a matter of hours. I can promise you that. Try to keep your anger inside, or if you can't do that actually TALK to the friend who's pissed you off.

Don't Tell Your Friend's Business
That's just...the rules of Feminism! Mean Girls...anyone? Just Don't. It'll end up BAD. Trust me, I've been there before. I've been on both sides of this argument. When a friend tells you something, it goes in the VAULT. One of my best friends has been living with a secret for years, and to this day I have not said one word about it because I respect her friendship. Now, yes, we have all told a friend's secret and it wasn't cool whatsoever, and we all know what that does...so let's all try to fix it. If someone asks you something, act DUMB...even if you do know... blatantly LIE. It will save your relationship.

Act Like an Old Married Couple
This might sound completely off the chart, but it works. My best friend and I fight all the time. It's so funny because Our parents say we fight like old people. That's where our friendship grows from. Take it old school. Learn everything about your friend. Learn what makes them tick, what pisses them off, what makes them sad. It's just the key to a successful relationship (at least w. my best friend)

I hope all this helps repair or renew a friendship that has been lost or a new friendship that is just now booming.
Kendall
:)